Happy All Saints Day. Happy November?! Happy Thursday...almost weekend! It has been too long since I've posted. I've written a few blogs but didn't have the heart to publish them. I tend to write very personal thoughts and I'm still figuring out what to include in this blog. However, I need to write! I miss this outlet and I hope you have missed it as well.
As I've quickly learned in the teaching profession, always start with something positive. So, here is something positive. I just pulled off my first concert at St. Pat's. It was a concert of spontaneity if you will. I wanted to give the students a chance to perform. Check. I wanted to give students solo opportunities. Check. I wanted to give myself a run-through before Christmas. Check. I wanted a great turn out. Check. I wanted positive feedback. Check. What a blast! The students didn't think we could do it, but by golly, we did. Here are a few comments from attendees: "I haven't been to a concert here that was so much fun!" "You took some risks and I commend you for that." "I loved the laid back feeling of this concert." "The kids really seemed to enjoy themselves."
All of these comments are spot on. When you ask your students to perform "Piano Man" and "Some Nights" (both songs talking about sex, drugs, war, etc) at a Catholic school, yes, I'd say that's a risk. However, it went off without any backlash from administration, so that is great. When I decided to go ahead with this thing, I didn't realize how many students in the Honor's Chorus had NEVER sung a solo. This baffled my mind. But! They have now and I believe they are better musicians because of it. Was it the perfect concert? NO! Were there times when pitches were sharp or flat, when students fumbled lyrics, and there was panic behind the scenes? YES! However, the end result was a huge success. Now, if I can just get them to understand that...
More good things. All of my classes are doing quite well (except one...). The boys are really on board with my teaching style and 'get er done' attitude. They are learning so quickly. For the most part, I really enjoy working with them. They just do it. They don't complain. They seem excited. And they are all excelling. (Again...most of my classes...ok... ALL except one). At the beginning of the year, I talked about having a fall pops concert only to hear a chorus(boom boom ching!) of hems and haws. But they really worked hard to make it happen. And they sounded great. They are learning about music, performance, and how to roll with the punches. I love that! I keep telling my performance classes, "You will never have a perfect performance. It's not about being perfect, it's about going through it, experiencing things. That's what learning is all about." Of course, with that mentality, all the tweeks get hashed out. The coolest part is they get it! Performing is an invigorating experience. You deal with so many emotions before, during, and after. If you can muscle through them, you will be successful.
Another good thing is I am becoming much more comfortable at my new school. After wading through the waters and realizing that I need to find things out for myself, it has made my life a bit easier. I was used to my old school, the principal always checking in, having a mentor I met with each week, people just being a bit more mindful. I am in no way saying I don't have support where I am now, I do. I am so thankful for the support and camaraderie of the teachers at my school. What I'm speaking about is the difference in administrative support. I've learned that administration is dealing with their own battles, and unless I bring something up, they will not 'seek me out'. It's a double-edged sword. It's great because I am free to teach what and how I want. It's terrible because I am not the type of person to ask for help... Anyway, I am definitely getting used to the school culture. Positive.
I've also had a chance to perform a little here and there. I've sang the Anthem for 3 football games, I've cantored for a Mass, and I sang at Open Mic Night. That tiny toodle tidbit of performing has made me realize how much I miss it! I miss it so much. It has made me begin to seek out performance opportunities. It has made me want to become a stronger vocalist and pianist. It has made me want to be a better musician. This is all good because it will only help me become a better teacher. Yay.
With all the good things happening, there have been a few hiccups...you know those hiccups that won't go away even after downing a spoonful of peanut butter or having your bf scare you? Yeah, those hiccups. The biggest one is expectations vs. finances. I know I didn't pick a profession that pays wonderfully. I get that. I'm not in it for the money. But I do need to survive. Last year, even though I was part-time, I was able to greatly supplement my income with private lessons and singing through the church. This year, even though I took a pay increase with benefits, I am still considered part-time. I am part-time by one class. Meaning instead of teaching 5 classes(full time), I teach 4. I am still fulfilling all obligations and commitments outside of school hours such as open houses, dept meetings, various choral activities, concerts, playing/singing for Masses...but I do not teach 5 classes. Financially, that one class sets me back significantly. I hate talking numbers or finances at all because I know I am blessed. I know there are so many people without a job. But, how is it fair that I am expected to do all the things a full time teacher does, yet not be salaried as full time? It is so frustrating, and it weighs so heavily on my mind. As a single woman, living and working as a teacher in the city of Chicago, I am constantly worrying about money. "Will I have enough for rent? Will I get a late payment fee on this or that.." which sets me back even more. Blah blah blah...I know. Last thing I will say about this: Our society is well aware that most teachers do not get the salary they deserve. Hell, almost any profession does not get that. But, can't a brotha help a sista out??
I was gonna rap this post up, but I realized I haven't written about my 'except one' class. It's so interesting that a group of teenage boys can get me so amped, but they sure have managed to do so. Briefly, this is the elite group of singers... They are far from elite to me. They have the attitude that they are the best and they know best. It is terrible. The worst part: It's not the majority of the group. It's a select few that just refuse to get on board. All I can say is, they need to. I am a teapot about ready to blow my lid and they will be very sorry when that day comes...
ok, crazy teacher lady is gone:)
As always, thank you so much for your support. I love reading and seeing what everyone is up to. It's so interesting to be connected with people in a way that was previously non-existent. This is one great thing about technology. It's a beautiful thing to see pictures of family, friends, high school friends, home-town buddies, and all things included. May God Bless You. Continue being the beautiful beings you all are. Live each day to the fullest and always be mindful and thankful.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Week...4?
It's always difficult trying to name these posts considering I don't even remember what day it is sometimes. Things are in full swing at school. My time is spent teaching, running around the school, copying, running around some more, shoveling a sandwich in my mouth, running, maybe a bathroom break(but I'm peeing standing up due to time), running again, copying, teaching...oh yeah! and singing, playing piano, directing, organizing (well that's wishful thinking) drums, mallets, more copying...you get the picture. It's been full steam ahead since the first day of school.
There have been some difficult moments thus far. One has been figuring out what my job actually entails. As expected when choosing the career of a teacher, there is always more commitment involved than on paper. I get that. I don't mind that. However, when I asked for a job description of my position, I was told there wasn't one. Now, normally this wouldn't be an issue, but considering that I'm not "technically" full-time, yet at school from 7:30am until at least 4:00pm, I really want to know! Another difficulty has been logistics. My room is on the 4th floor of the school...there is no 4th floor. It's tucked up and away on the roof. Think attic. Now don't get me wrong, I enjoy having a cool room with VIP access to the roof if I need fresh air, but NO ONE comes to my room except students. If I have a computer issue, I call someone to give me directions over the phone. If I'm supposed to meet with another teacher, they don't come to my room, I go to theirs. If I need copies, I go over the river and through the woods to make them. Lord help me if I forget to bring everything. That is the hardest part. At my old school, teachers and administration popped in all the time. The copier was right downstairs. It was comforting. Now, I don't really have that. I'm just kinda stuck up there expected to know what I'm doing.
Another jut in the road happened last week. Our principal's wife passed away. Quick snippet of our principal: He went to St. Pat's. He taught at St. Pat's. He is principal and will become President next year. He has over 40 years of history with St. Pat's. He was given honorary Brotherhood status with the Lasallian Brothers. He lives for this school. He is the nicest, sincerest man you will ever meet. Expectantly, things at school were changed around. Our homecoming was moved to the end of the month. School was cancelled on Friday so faculty and students could attend the funeral. The Choir was asked to sing. The guys did a phenomenal job. They were truly pros. They sounded great. Looked great. And my goodness, I was so thankful to have them. They made me look great. It was a bit overwhelming but we pulled it off and got many thanks.
So the other side of difficult is 'easy'. Let me share with you what 's been easy. The students. This is a school of 740 teenage boys mind you. When you think of it that way, it actually sounds crazy! But, these boys are pretty cool. My guys are doing a phenomenal job, especially in the performance classes. The men's chorus has already learned almost 3 songs. They sing well. They have learned so quickly, it's been hard to keep up! I would say 98% of them really try every day. This is a group of 27 students from all grades. Most of them have never sung with others. But they are doing it! And quite well at that.
It's interesting because the Honor's Chorus has also been doing great but they've been weighing on my mind. I want to keep tradition but I also want to teach them new things, new traditions. These are students who are more musically inclined. They sound fabulous! But, it's interesting, when I introduce something new or am breaking away from the previous teacher's practices. They do the work, but I can tell they don't want to or are questioning me. It's ok. They don't fully trust me yet. I do have a plan for them and they will begin to see it! As we all know, it's more difficult to adapt to change when you've been in the same routine for longer.
Ok, I'll make the rest short. Percussion II is a group of 11 guys. They amuse me. This class is the second period of the day so they are still sleepy. But I get them moving and they do well. They have already learned a piece called "Clap Trap". It's a body percussion song. They can actually play the entire song through after 2.5 weeks! I don't know if my expectations are lower or something, but to me, that's awesome! They also have one other piece highlighting mallets. They think they suck at this song but we've only started it 4 days ago. Today, it actually sounded like a song in parts!
Intro to music is Interesting. General Music Survey Course. Oodles of musical concepts smooshed into one semester (4 months). I started out going with previous teacher's ideas, syllabi, etc. I'm finding out that the pace and some material is unnecessary. I will be streamling this course. There is so much information given to the students. It's too much too fast. These are not musicians! These are just dudes. They are very interested in music, but only aspects that are familiar to a non-musician. I am learning and trying. They have actually been quite forgiving with my inadequacy to teach this class appropriately thus far. Again, the students help Me through.
The last school thing I've decided to take on is DrumLine. This came about after supervising DrumLine at the football game on Saturday. If you don't know, I LOVE football. LOVE DrumLine. Love da pack. and now Love da Shamrocks. It's so cool seeing my students play and seeing what they spend so much time practicing(this goes for all sports, activities,etc) but right now, it's football. So, DrumLine. I was told that a student would be in charge and I was only there to chaperone. Ok, cool. Well, after supervising the first half, I decided to take over. They didn't have a leader, they didn't have music, they didn't have a cadence...but they played, "Boom Boom Chick, Boom Boom Chick" aka "We Will Rock You". I don't want to say I was horrified, but I couldn't just sit back! So, I got them going, made them stand, counted a 4 pattern, told them to improvise, got them playing after a great football play, etc. Guess what?! Shamrocks pulled a win out that game. It was AWESOME! So, I told them to meet me today after school. And guess what?! I gave them music. We started rehearsing. They just need someone. This year, it's me. I love DrumLine though! At my high school, I was in the colorguard. I remember preparing and performing half-time shows on the field, going to competitions, listening to drumlines and such. Not sure if I'm the best candidate for this job, but I want to help the students.
Whew, this has been a long post. I could've written much more. But how much can one take reading about the life of a teacher? I do appreciate you all for your support and I hope to continue writing and reflecting on this path God has chosen for me. I forget to mention sometimes, that my school is Catholic. We actually pray at the start of each class. We celebrate God. We sing Christmas carols. We talk about religion. We are encouraged. This is a privilege. It's difficult most times, to broach the subject of God with others. It's almost considered a fau pax. It takes a confident and strong individual to be willing and able to talk about his or her beliefs. This school is a place to start that conversation. To continue that conversation. For that, I am truly grateful. I encourage you all to start these conversations. You will be surprised at what you find.
There have been some difficult moments thus far. One has been figuring out what my job actually entails. As expected when choosing the career of a teacher, there is always more commitment involved than on paper. I get that. I don't mind that. However, when I asked for a job description of my position, I was told there wasn't one. Now, normally this wouldn't be an issue, but considering that I'm not "technically" full-time, yet at school from 7:30am until at least 4:00pm, I really want to know! Another difficulty has been logistics. My room is on the 4th floor of the school...there is no 4th floor. It's tucked up and away on the roof. Think attic. Now don't get me wrong, I enjoy having a cool room with VIP access to the roof if I need fresh air, but NO ONE comes to my room except students. If I have a computer issue, I call someone to give me directions over the phone. If I'm supposed to meet with another teacher, they don't come to my room, I go to theirs. If I need copies, I go over the river and through the woods to make them. Lord help me if I forget to bring everything. That is the hardest part. At my old school, teachers and administration popped in all the time. The copier was right downstairs. It was comforting. Now, I don't really have that. I'm just kinda stuck up there expected to know what I'm doing.
Another jut in the road happened last week. Our principal's wife passed away. Quick snippet of our principal: He went to St. Pat's. He taught at St. Pat's. He is principal and will become President next year. He has over 40 years of history with St. Pat's. He was given honorary Brotherhood status with the Lasallian Brothers. He lives for this school. He is the nicest, sincerest man you will ever meet. Expectantly, things at school were changed around. Our homecoming was moved to the end of the month. School was cancelled on Friday so faculty and students could attend the funeral. The Choir was asked to sing. The guys did a phenomenal job. They were truly pros. They sounded great. Looked great. And my goodness, I was so thankful to have them. They made me look great. It was a bit overwhelming but we pulled it off and got many thanks.
So the other side of difficult is 'easy'. Let me share with you what 's been easy. The students. This is a school of 740 teenage boys mind you. When you think of it that way, it actually sounds crazy! But, these boys are pretty cool. My guys are doing a phenomenal job, especially in the performance classes. The men's chorus has already learned almost 3 songs. They sing well. They have learned so quickly, it's been hard to keep up! I would say 98% of them really try every day. This is a group of 27 students from all grades. Most of them have never sung with others. But they are doing it! And quite well at that.
It's interesting because the Honor's Chorus has also been doing great but they've been weighing on my mind. I want to keep tradition but I also want to teach them new things, new traditions. These are students who are more musically inclined. They sound fabulous! But, it's interesting, when I introduce something new or am breaking away from the previous teacher's practices. They do the work, but I can tell they don't want to or are questioning me. It's ok. They don't fully trust me yet. I do have a plan for them and they will begin to see it! As we all know, it's more difficult to adapt to change when you've been in the same routine for longer.
Ok, I'll make the rest short. Percussion II is a group of 11 guys. They amuse me. This class is the second period of the day so they are still sleepy. But I get them moving and they do well. They have already learned a piece called "Clap Trap". It's a body percussion song. They can actually play the entire song through after 2.5 weeks! I don't know if my expectations are lower or something, but to me, that's awesome! They also have one other piece highlighting mallets. They think they suck at this song but we've only started it 4 days ago. Today, it actually sounded like a song in parts!
Intro to music is Interesting. General Music Survey Course. Oodles of musical concepts smooshed into one semester (4 months). I started out going with previous teacher's ideas, syllabi, etc. I'm finding out that the pace and some material is unnecessary. I will be streamling this course. There is so much information given to the students. It's too much too fast. These are not musicians! These are just dudes. They are very interested in music, but only aspects that are familiar to a non-musician. I am learning and trying. They have actually been quite forgiving with my inadequacy to teach this class appropriately thus far. Again, the students help Me through.
The last school thing I've decided to take on is DrumLine. This came about after supervising DrumLine at the football game on Saturday. If you don't know, I LOVE football. LOVE DrumLine. Love da pack. and now Love da Shamrocks. It's so cool seeing my students play and seeing what they spend so much time practicing(this goes for all sports, activities,etc) but right now, it's football. So, DrumLine. I was told that a student would be in charge and I was only there to chaperone. Ok, cool. Well, after supervising the first half, I decided to take over. They didn't have a leader, they didn't have music, they didn't have a cadence...but they played, "Boom Boom Chick, Boom Boom Chick" aka "We Will Rock You". I don't want to say I was horrified, but I couldn't just sit back! So, I got them going, made them stand, counted a 4 pattern, told them to improvise, got them playing after a great football play, etc. Guess what?! Shamrocks pulled a win out that game. It was AWESOME! So, I told them to meet me today after school. And guess what?! I gave them music. We started rehearsing. They just need someone. This year, it's me. I love DrumLine though! At my high school, I was in the colorguard. I remember preparing and performing half-time shows on the field, going to competitions, listening to drumlines and such. Not sure if I'm the best candidate for this job, but I want to help the students.
Whew, this has been a long post. I could've written much more. But how much can one take reading about the life of a teacher? I do appreciate you all for your support and I hope to continue writing and reflecting on this path God has chosen for me. I forget to mention sometimes, that my school is Catholic. We actually pray at the start of each class. We celebrate God. We sing Christmas carols. We talk about religion. We are encouraged. This is a privilege. It's difficult most times, to broach the subject of God with others. It's almost considered a fau pax. It takes a confident and strong individual to be willing and able to talk about his or her beliefs. This school is a place to start that conversation. To continue that conversation. For that, I am truly grateful. I encourage you all to start these conversations. You will be surprised at what you find.
Monday, August 20, 2012
New school, new teacher...again
I never expected to get the call I did back in mid May. It was a call from the Music Dept Chair at Saint Patrick High School. Granted, I do have history with St. Pat's since I student taught there but was not expecting to hear that the Choir teacher was leaving. At the time of this phone call, I had no intentions of leaving my current school. Heck! I just got my bearings after 9 months! After hearing the position at St. Pat's was only part-time, I declined any interest in the job. Afterall, I was already part-time. Why change schools for the same deal? However, in early June I received another call. This time it was from the big guy, Dr. Schmidt, the principal and President elect. He gave me the logistics of the job, what would be offered, and asked if I was interested in coming in for an interview.
Hmmm, my mind went in a million directions. Thoughts were scattered across the board. What they were offering, I could not say no to. But, I just told my current principal, students, parents, that I would be back next year ready to rock. I was very conflicted but decided it wouldn't hurt to 'check out' St. Pat's. Well, they offered me the job. And, after much deliberation, I took it. Careerwise, it was an opportunity I could not pass up. Yet, my heart was hurting because I knew I had to break the news to my other school. I had built such wonderful relationships at St. Tars, especially with the students whom I taught privately. Luckily, school was already out and I didn't have to tell those darling little faces in person. Call me a coward, but it would've been WAY too hard to see their reactions when they found out I wasn't coming back. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they were crying and throwing fits, I'm not even saying they cared, but I did receive many emails from parents stating their sadness with me leaving. I also received many emails from parents who still want me to teach their kids privately. That aspect really makes me feel good. I guess I did one thing right in my year there. But, let's fast forward...
Now I am the Choral Director at Saint Patrick High School in Chicago, IL. This is oldest school for boys going into their 152nd year. It is a Lasallian school meaning they adhere to the practices of Saint John Baptist De La Salle. He is the patron Saint of all teachers of children and adolescents. He founded the Lasallian School for boys nearly three centuries ago. He wrote many books on the 'etiquette' of teaching, rules for teaching unruly young men. The mission of Lasallian education is simply providing a human and Christian to the young, especially the poor. Our school adheres to just that. It is an amazing environment for young men to be taught not just curriculum, but how to be respectful young gentlemen. My new principal relayed a quote from a St. Pat's donor: Dr. Schmidt, "Why do you keep giving money to our school after all these years?" Donor, "because you take hooligans and turn them into fine young men." It really is an amazing school.
Anyhoo, my title is Choral Director, but I am also teaching a Percussion Ensemble and an Introduction to Music course, plus two choirs and an acapella group. I kinda wish my title was something like "Music Teacher Afficianado" lol. It is awesome for me because I did student teach these exact courses. However, as I've already found out, it is WAY different being the actual teacher rather than just being there for 8 weeks.
This past Friday, only Freshmen were present. Today was the first all-school day. Mind you, it was only a half day but I really got a feel for the guys I'll be teaching this semester. It is EXCITING!!! Most of them are also excited to be back to school, ready and willing to learn...but I can already tell there's a handful of guys who are going to try and push me...the great thing is, though, I have tremendous support when it comes to disciplining students. Every single thing is outlined in the student handbook. Students may get fined for certain things, receive detentions, disciplinary notices, up to expultion. It will be interesting to see the dynamic of my classes when that first detention is handed out. Don't get me wrong, I do not want to give any detentions. But, lets face it, it's gonna happen.
My first choir is Men's Chorus. Although this is an audition ensemble, anyone is accepted and any grade may join. Over half of this choir is new. Most have never sung with an ensemble before. There are 25 guys. It seems like a fun bunch and I hope we can do some damage in the music making arena. The second choir is Honor's Chorus. This is audition only and comprised of the 'best of the best' singers in the school. Currently, there are 18 members. It's interesting coming into this situation with the choirs already chosen. I did not have the privilege of placing these gents. That was the old teacher. Even today there were remarks about first-time choristers being placed in Honor's and "how did that happen?" "hmm, that's interesting that you're here." "I'm gonna have words with Mr. Lea". (the old director). Se la vie! My auditions are being held Wed-Fri in class! I need to hear ya guys!! Although I can't switch students from choir to choir at this point, I can still place ya in the proper section! ...I'm laughing as I write partly because I think this is funny but mostly because I'm laughing at silly music teacher humor:) We really are some of the nerdiest folk around! Once I get all the rep firmly locked, I will post a blog specifically to that...but let's just say 'Lux Arumque' by Eric Whitacre is in the plans!! FYI, if you've never heard of this composer or this piece, I highly suggest you youtube.com it.
I will also be supervising the Drum Line at a few football games. I know, I know. What do I know about drumline?? Well, not much but I do know how to start and end an ensemble and...I love football?! It will be a fun way to interact with the student body. Lastly, I never thought I would say this, but I am super excited to be heading to Soldier Field this Saturday. Our football team is playing their Kick-off game there!! How cool is that? Go Shamrocks! I will also be chaperoning the Homecoming Dance in two weeks. Again, I really want to dive into the Shamrock culture as much as possible. I am lucky to know many of the teachers from my previous experience. It is really cool to have colleagues who are in my age bracket, excited about their jobs, and excited to interact with the students as well.
After having my first summer off...EVER, I finally feel like I am ready to tackle the new challenges ahead. I feel honored and blessed to be in this position and I cannot wait to see how the year unfolds. I have prayed about my career, where I'd like to be, and that it happen in a timely manner, but I am amazed everyday how God truly does answer our prayers. He helps us nurture our own wants and needs in ways we cannot understand. I continue to turn to Him for guidance every single day and He continues to bless me every single day. I ask for your prayers as this new school year begins. In many ways, these writings are a way to reflect, define, and build my own ideas of being a teacher. I thank all of you for your continued support and interest in my posts. It is extremely humbling to hear from so many of you that you enjoy my blog and interest in it continuing. THANK YOU!!
Hmmm, my mind went in a million directions. Thoughts were scattered across the board. What they were offering, I could not say no to. But, I just told my current principal, students, parents, that I would be back next year ready to rock. I was very conflicted but decided it wouldn't hurt to 'check out' St. Pat's. Well, they offered me the job. And, after much deliberation, I took it. Careerwise, it was an opportunity I could not pass up. Yet, my heart was hurting because I knew I had to break the news to my other school. I had built such wonderful relationships at St. Tars, especially with the students whom I taught privately. Luckily, school was already out and I didn't have to tell those darling little faces in person. Call me a coward, but it would've been WAY too hard to see their reactions when they found out I wasn't coming back. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying they were crying and throwing fits, I'm not even saying they cared, but I did receive many emails from parents stating their sadness with me leaving. I also received many emails from parents who still want me to teach their kids privately. That aspect really makes me feel good. I guess I did one thing right in my year there. But, let's fast forward...
Now I am the Choral Director at Saint Patrick High School in Chicago, IL. This is oldest school for boys going into their 152nd year. It is a Lasallian school meaning they adhere to the practices of Saint John Baptist De La Salle. He is the patron Saint of all teachers of children and adolescents. He founded the Lasallian School for boys nearly three centuries ago. He wrote many books on the 'etiquette' of teaching, rules for teaching unruly young men. The mission of Lasallian education is simply providing a human and Christian to the young, especially the poor. Our school adheres to just that. It is an amazing environment for young men to be taught not just curriculum, but how to be respectful young gentlemen. My new principal relayed a quote from a St. Pat's donor: Dr. Schmidt, "Why do you keep giving money to our school after all these years?" Donor, "because you take hooligans and turn them into fine young men." It really is an amazing school.
Anyhoo, my title is Choral Director, but I am also teaching a Percussion Ensemble and an Introduction to Music course, plus two choirs and an acapella group. I kinda wish my title was something like "Music Teacher Afficianado" lol. It is awesome for me because I did student teach these exact courses. However, as I've already found out, it is WAY different being the actual teacher rather than just being there for 8 weeks.
This past Friday, only Freshmen were present. Today was the first all-school day. Mind you, it was only a half day but I really got a feel for the guys I'll be teaching this semester. It is EXCITING!!! Most of them are also excited to be back to school, ready and willing to learn...but I can already tell there's a handful of guys who are going to try and push me...the great thing is, though, I have tremendous support when it comes to disciplining students. Every single thing is outlined in the student handbook. Students may get fined for certain things, receive detentions, disciplinary notices, up to expultion. It will be interesting to see the dynamic of my classes when that first detention is handed out. Don't get me wrong, I do not want to give any detentions. But, lets face it, it's gonna happen.
My first choir is Men's Chorus. Although this is an audition ensemble, anyone is accepted and any grade may join. Over half of this choir is new. Most have never sung with an ensemble before. There are 25 guys. It seems like a fun bunch and I hope we can do some damage in the music making arena. The second choir is Honor's Chorus. This is audition only and comprised of the 'best of the best' singers in the school. Currently, there are 18 members. It's interesting coming into this situation with the choirs already chosen. I did not have the privilege of placing these gents. That was the old teacher. Even today there were remarks about first-time choristers being placed in Honor's and "how did that happen?" "hmm, that's interesting that you're here." "I'm gonna have words with Mr. Lea". (the old director). Se la vie! My auditions are being held Wed-Fri in class! I need to hear ya guys!! Although I can't switch students from choir to choir at this point, I can still place ya in the proper section! ...I'm laughing as I write partly because I think this is funny but mostly because I'm laughing at silly music teacher humor:) We really are some of the nerdiest folk around! Once I get all the rep firmly locked, I will post a blog specifically to that...but let's just say 'Lux Arumque' by Eric Whitacre is in the plans!! FYI, if you've never heard of this composer or this piece, I highly suggest you youtube.com it.
I will also be supervising the Drum Line at a few football games. I know, I know. What do I know about drumline?? Well, not much but I do know how to start and end an ensemble and...I love football?! It will be a fun way to interact with the student body. Lastly, I never thought I would say this, but I am super excited to be heading to Soldier Field this Saturday. Our football team is playing their Kick-off game there!! How cool is that? Go Shamrocks! I will also be chaperoning the Homecoming Dance in two weeks. Again, I really want to dive into the Shamrock culture as much as possible. I am lucky to know many of the teachers from my previous experience. It is really cool to have colleagues who are in my age bracket, excited about their jobs, and excited to interact with the students as well.
After having my first summer off...EVER, I finally feel like I am ready to tackle the new challenges ahead. I feel honored and blessed to be in this position and I cannot wait to see how the year unfolds. I have prayed about my career, where I'd like to be, and that it happen in a timely manner, but I am amazed everyday how God truly does answer our prayers. He helps us nurture our own wants and needs in ways we cannot understand. I continue to turn to Him for guidance every single day and He continues to bless me every single day. I ask for your prayers as this new school year begins. In many ways, these writings are a way to reflect, define, and build my own ideas of being a teacher. I thank all of you for your continued support and interest in my posts. It is extremely humbling to hear from so many of you that you enjoy my blog and interest in it continuing. THANK YOU!!
Thursday, April 26, 2012
26 More Days
Wow. Each time I sit down to write, I cannot believe how quickly time has passed. There are only 26 school days left. I remember writing about my first day back in August 2011, excited, nervous, not even thinking about the 'end'. Now, it's almost here! So much has been going on at school. Again, I never know where to begin, so excuse the word vomit.
I am very excited for the upcoming Talent Show. Any student from grades 4-8 are able to participate. Thus far, 5 of my private students are participating. I am so excited to see them perform. They have all come leaps and bounds from the beginning of the year. One student, an 8th grader, came to me with a piece of music even I had trouble playing. Yet she was determined to learn it. I was able to tweek the arrangement a bit so she could manage better. And by golly, she has the entire song almost memorized. I think this is amazing. She also found out she got accepted into her first choice high school after she appealed their decision of rejection. I previously blogged about writing her a recommendation letter. It's so cool to see that process turn into a positive situation! Also, there is another student, 5th grade, who I have been asking to participate in the show. He is such an amazing dancer! One class, I played a song from their playlist. This boy closed his eyes and danced the entire song. I haven't seen anything like his moves..well, maybe never! But he just won't give in. Bribery? I think possibly.
The Glee Club is also performing for the Talent Show. They will be singing between acts. Of course the girls are in a tizzy about it. "You mean we have to sing in front of the school?" "YES! Isn't that exciting??" They are really starting to sound great, though, united as a group. It's fun too because I get to fill in on parts and sing with them. It's really cool.
BOOMWHACKERS. Attention Music Teachers: You all know BOOMWHACKERS well. Save them for the end of the year! FYI: BOOMWHACKERS are 'instruments' made of plastic in the shape of long tubes. Different lengths play different pitches. You can hit them on anything. They are different colors. They make noise. They are awesome. The 1st and 2nd grades have been using them for two weeks. It is highly entertaining to watch the students march around the room banging these things on everything and LOVING it! I have been laughing constantly.
ROCK N ROLL HISTORY. Grades 5-8 have begun the long and winding road of rock 'n' roll. All grades learned briefly (and I mean, if they remember Bill Haley and Elvis it's a success) about the 50s, the beginning of rock. Now, each grade is learning about a different decade. 5th grade=60s, 6th grade=70s, 7th grade=80s, 8th grade=90s. Each grade is doing a 'research project' about the band/group/artist they drew from an envelope. Of course, I left out the artists they already know! Today the 8th grade drew. Here are some comments: "How do I pronounce this? Rage and the Machine?" "Ace of Base... Are they good?" Sophie B. Hawkins...okay...", "Miss Courchaine, May I please pick a different group?" Miss Courchaine, "Do YOU know who Hootie and the Blowfish is??" haha. I was cracking up. The 90s were such a train wreck! But I am really excited to see what these kids come up with. All in all, most students from all grades seem excited about the project so that's a double bonus. Plus, it is an easy progression and lesson plan for next year. Score.
ADOLESCENT BOYS. Let's see... this week I had a 7th grade boy ask me out in front of his class. I had 3 8th grade boys, who come to 'hang' in my room twice a week during study, talk to me about their parties, and 'freedom', and I had the entire Glee Club trying to fill me in on which boys they like this week. How funny. Man, do you remember your Junior High years?? What an awkward stage. My first french kiss was Spring of 7th grade. I was mortified!!! It was so weird and foreign. I will say, most of the kids I teach are still innocent...most. However, there are some that have already experienced way too much for their own good. They are so young!!! Drugs and sex aren't just left to high school, college, or beyond anymore. My, how times have changed. Again, I think I've written on this subject before!
Lastly, it is not official yet, but there is a great possibility I will be taking over the Youth Choirs if I stay at my school next year. This could mean many things: More students joining choir, because they all know me and see me consistently, more pay, and possibly some benefits. This would be phenomenal. Do you know how difficult it is to survive on a part-time private school salary?? I REALLY do not want to take on another bar job, or any job for that matter, to supplement my income. I am too old. I ask that you pray for me and this possible transition/promotion.
As always, I have to thank you all for reading, following, and supporting my first year of teaching. I am thankful I've been able to document this monumental time. I am also thankful that I have re-discovered my passion for writing. It is such a powerful thing to write. Put things down in black and white. See your thoughts stare you straight back. I encourage everyone to try it. Keep a journal. Write your thoughts. Reflect.
I am very excited for the upcoming Talent Show. Any student from grades 4-8 are able to participate. Thus far, 5 of my private students are participating. I am so excited to see them perform. They have all come leaps and bounds from the beginning of the year. One student, an 8th grader, came to me with a piece of music even I had trouble playing. Yet she was determined to learn it. I was able to tweek the arrangement a bit so she could manage better. And by golly, she has the entire song almost memorized. I think this is amazing. She also found out she got accepted into her first choice high school after she appealed their decision of rejection. I previously blogged about writing her a recommendation letter. It's so cool to see that process turn into a positive situation! Also, there is another student, 5th grade, who I have been asking to participate in the show. He is such an amazing dancer! One class, I played a song from their playlist. This boy closed his eyes and danced the entire song. I haven't seen anything like his moves..well, maybe never! But he just won't give in. Bribery? I think possibly.
The Glee Club is also performing for the Talent Show. They will be singing between acts. Of course the girls are in a tizzy about it. "You mean we have to sing in front of the school?" "YES! Isn't that exciting??" They are really starting to sound great, though, united as a group. It's fun too because I get to fill in on parts and sing with them. It's really cool.
BOOMWHACKERS. Attention Music Teachers: You all know BOOMWHACKERS well. Save them for the end of the year! FYI: BOOMWHACKERS are 'instruments' made of plastic in the shape of long tubes. Different lengths play different pitches. You can hit them on anything. They are different colors. They make noise. They are awesome. The 1st and 2nd grades have been using them for two weeks. It is highly entertaining to watch the students march around the room banging these things on everything and LOVING it! I have been laughing constantly.
ROCK N ROLL HISTORY. Grades 5-8 have begun the long and winding road of rock 'n' roll. All grades learned briefly (and I mean, if they remember Bill Haley and Elvis it's a success) about the 50s, the beginning of rock. Now, each grade is learning about a different decade. 5th grade=60s, 6th grade=70s, 7th grade=80s, 8th grade=90s. Each grade is doing a 'research project' about the band/group/artist they drew from an envelope. Of course, I left out the artists they already know! Today the 8th grade drew. Here are some comments: "How do I pronounce this? Rage and the Machine?" "Ace of Base... Are they good?" Sophie B. Hawkins...okay...", "Miss Courchaine, May I please pick a different group?" Miss Courchaine, "Do YOU know who Hootie and the Blowfish is??" haha. I was cracking up. The 90s were such a train wreck! But I am really excited to see what these kids come up with. All in all, most students from all grades seem excited about the project so that's a double bonus. Plus, it is an easy progression and lesson plan for next year. Score.
ADOLESCENT BOYS. Let's see... this week I had a 7th grade boy ask me out in front of his class. I had 3 8th grade boys, who come to 'hang' in my room twice a week during study, talk to me about their parties, and 'freedom', and I had the entire Glee Club trying to fill me in on which boys they like this week. How funny. Man, do you remember your Junior High years?? What an awkward stage. My first french kiss was Spring of 7th grade. I was mortified!!! It was so weird and foreign. I will say, most of the kids I teach are still innocent...most. However, there are some that have already experienced way too much for their own good. They are so young!!! Drugs and sex aren't just left to high school, college, or beyond anymore. My, how times have changed. Again, I think I've written on this subject before!
Lastly, it is not official yet, but there is a great possibility I will be taking over the Youth Choirs if I stay at my school next year. This could mean many things: More students joining choir, because they all know me and see me consistently, more pay, and possibly some benefits. This would be phenomenal. Do you know how difficult it is to survive on a part-time private school salary?? I REALLY do not want to take on another bar job, or any job for that matter, to supplement my income. I am too old. I ask that you pray for me and this possible transition/promotion.
As always, I have to thank you all for reading, following, and supporting my first year of teaching. I am thankful I've been able to document this monumental time. I am also thankful that I have re-discovered my passion for writing. It is such a powerful thing to write. Put things down in black and white. See your thoughts stare you straight back. I encourage everyone to try it. Keep a journal. Write your thoughts. Reflect.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
It's Summer... I mean Spring!
So much has been happening. I never know where to start...but, how blessed are we to have such fantastic, unbelieveable weather? Wow. It was 85 degrees in Chicago today! This winter has been so mild compared to last year. 2011 was the year of the blizzard in Chicago. We still had a foot of snow on the ground on this day 2011. It's amazing how things work out.
I'm writing after Friday and Monday off this past week. Friday we had an in-service. Let's just say I am so thankful I do not have to attend monthly staff meetings. No one ever really says what they want or need. They play the advocate. Faculty members tend to express their concerns, feelings, then renigue what they just said because they don't want to offend anyone. This is ridiculous to me. If you have a question, just ask. If you have a concern, just say it. Why is that so difficult? I have to think this is just a perk for working with all grades and all teachers...part time. Sometimes, though, it just seems like it would be easier to say things rather than sugarcoat them.
Anywho, at this meeting, I started writing a 'to-do' list. I continue to be more aware of my behavior and the way it affects my classes. I've started to ease up with my classes in a way. First of all, it's too damn hot to expect any class to focus for more than 10 minutes at a time. Actually, this 10 minute rule was given to me by my supervisor during student teaching but I never got it until now. I've started to structure every class in 10 minute intervals: 10 minutes singing, 10 minutes direct instruction, 10 minutes hands on. This seems to be working well. Now.. if I can only remember my rules!
Today I found a new discipline method that actually worked with 6th grade...and I hope it works across the board. It's quite simple. "Let's finish with the work we need, and what time is left at the end, we will listen to music, new music, your music." This means that if a class is not behaving, I can take time off of their 'free time'. I took 2.5 minutes off the 6th grade class for their free time. If someone talked, I started the time over. And, by golly, they sat for the entire 2.5 minutes silent. And guess what?! We had time to listen to one new song.
See, this entire year, I've been trying to just expose my students to new music, whether it be jazz, rap, classical, rock, etc. They really love when I play music from my own playlist. My new project is to create playlists for each grade, combine them, and make them available to students. So far, each grade is completely ecstatic about this. And I'm excited to share music between the students and myself.
I've had so many goals for the year as far as teaching music and what I want students to learn. But, I've realized that if I can just make these kids more aware of other types of music/bands/artists, other than what is 'main stream', I am doing my job. Making them more aware. Getting them to hear/listen to things they would never even be exposed to. Its really cool. I've also realized that my calm, almost laxidazical demeanor tends to get the students to self-discipline. I don't need to yell. I don't need to get upset. If I talk in a calm manor and students see that, they self manage their class. It's brilliant! Fool proof? NO!
Back in the lounge, teachers were talking about the number of days left in the year: after Spring Break, we have 34 days. That is crazy! I can't believe where we started and how quickly it is coming to an end. I am so proud to say I've stuck it out. I am so proud to say I am almost finished with my first year of teaching. What an amazing feeling.
Of course with the end of the year approaching, reflection is in full swing. Every single teacher has told me that the first year is the hardest. If that's the case, I cannot wait for next year! Of course, there is the matter of supporting myself through the summer. Yes, I get a paycheck yearly. Yes, this paycheck is below "poverty" level. However, I have been thinking of things to do this summer. One of my colleagues mentioned a song writing workshop. She gave an over-all music workshop last summer for a week. She was successful. And, she made a decent amount of money. It excites me to do something like this. I am NO expert in song writing, but I think I could help kids hone their musical talents and writing abilities. I also hope to give summer piano/voice lessons. Another way to supplement.
Each year, I realize more and more how the cold and dark days affect me mentally, physically. It wasn't until later in life that I was told depression runs in my family. I know most of us deal with the wintertime blues. It is difficult and sometimes a battle. This is what I deal with. It is a breath of fresh air to see Spring so early. It makes me worry for next year. How will I deal with my own inner struggles? I only hope I am able to continue my routine. YOGA. WALKING. BREATHING. It is so important.
After talking with my dad, once more I am certain there is one person who loves me. My dad is such an amazing, selfless individual... I talked to him about my brother, Dave. If Dave were here, he would be the first person to visit me. The first to pick up the phone. The first to yell at me. The first to make me laugh. To everyone who has lost someone, I say a prayer. I pray for those that have departed from us and I pray they are looking down on us. Thank you again to all who read this blog. You continue to inspire me through your thoughts and prayers. If you would like to continue a dialogue, please email me at Misscoachc@yahoo.com.
I'm writing after Friday and Monday off this past week. Friday we had an in-service. Let's just say I am so thankful I do not have to attend monthly staff meetings. No one ever really says what they want or need. They play the advocate. Faculty members tend to express their concerns, feelings, then renigue what they just said because they don't want to offend anyone. This is ridiculous to me. If you have a question, just ask. If you have a concern, just say it. Why is that so difficult? I have to think this is just a perk for working with all grades and all teachers...part time. Sometimes, though, it just seems like it would be easier to say things rather than sugarcoat them.
Anywho, at this meeting, I started writing a 'to-do' list. I continue to be more aware of my behavior and the way it affects my classes. I've started to ease up with my classes in a way. First of all, it's too damn hot to expect any class to focus for more than 10 minutes at a time. Actually, this 10 minute rule was given to me by my supervisor during student teaching but I never got it until now. I've started to structure every class in 10 minute intervals: 10 minutes singing, 10 minutes direct instruction, 10 minutes hands on. This seems to be working well. Now.. if I can only remember my rules!
Today I found a new discipline method that actually worked with 6th grade...and I hope it works across the board. It's quite simple. "Let's finish with the work we need, and what time is left at the end, we will listen to music, new music, your music." This means that if a class is not behaving, I can take time off of their 'free time'. I took 2.5 minutes off the 6th grade class for their free time. If someone talked, I started the time over. And, by golly, they sat for the entire 2.5 minutes silent. And guess what?! We had time to listen to one new song.
See, this entire year, I've been trying to just expose my students to new music, whether it be jazz, rap, classical, rock, etc. They really love when I play music from my own playlist. My new project is to create playlists for each grade, combine them, and make them available to students. So far, each grade is completely ecstatic about this. And I'm excited to share music between the students and myself.
I've had so many goals for the year as far as teaching music and what I want students to learn. But, I've realized that if I can just make these kids more aware of other types of music/bands/artists, other than what is 'main stream', I am doing my job. Making them more aware. Getting them to hear/listen to things they would never even be exposed to. Its really cool. I've also realized that my calm, almost laxidazical demeanor tends to get the students to self-discipline. I don't need to yell. I don't need to get upset. If I talk in a calm manor and students see that, they self manage their class. It's brilliant! Fool proof? NO!
Back in the lounge, teachers were talking about the number of days left in the year: after Spring Break, we have 34 days. That is crazy! I can't believe where we started and how quickly it is coming to an end. I am so proud to say I've stuck it out. I am so proud to say I am almost finished with my first year of teaching. What an amazing feeling.
Of course with the end of the year approaching, reflection is in full swing. Every single teacher has told me that the first year is the hardest. If that's the case, I cannot wait for next year! Of course, there is the matter of supporting myself through the summer. Yes, I get a paycheck yearly. Yes, this paycheck is below "poverty" level. However, I have been thinking of things to do this summer. One of my colleagues mentioned a song writing workshop. She gave an over-all music workshop last summer for a week. She was successful. And, she made a decent amount of money. It excites me to do something like this. I am NO expert in song writing, but I think I could help kids hone their musical talents and writing abilities. I also hope to give summer piano/voice lessons. Another way to supplement.
Each year, I realize more and more how the cold and dark days affect me mentally, physically. It wasn't until later in life that I was told depression runs in my family. I know most of us deal with the wintertime blues. It is difficult and sometimes a battle. This is what I deal with. It is a breath of fresh air to see Spring so early. It makes me worry for next year. How will I deal with my own inner struggles? I only hope I am able to continue my routine. YOGA. WALKING. BREATHING. It is so important.
After talking with my dad, once more I am certain there is one person who loves me. My dad is such an amazing, selfless individual... I talked to him about my brother, Dave. If Dave were here, he would be the first person to visit me. The first to pick up the phone. The first to yell at me. The first to make me laugh. To everyone who has lost someone, I say a prayer. I pray for those that have departed from us and I pray they are looking down on us. Thank you again to all who read this blog. You continue to inspire me through your thoughts and prayers. If you would like to continue a dialogue, please email me at Misscoachc@yahoo.com.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
March 2012
It's been a good week. We are officially into the third trimester...yes. the last one. It's hard to believe so much time has gone by. But then again, it's been quite a roller coaster ride. I have finally learned 95% of the student's names, even piecing together brothers, sisters, cousins! Things seem to be flowing more smoothly. Now, my focus is being more adaptive and flexible with the scheduling. For instance, Monday the school dismissed at 11:30am because of conferences. I did not even realize this. Therefore, I did not reach out to any parents/students that had lessons in the afternoon. Oh well. Next Friday and Monday there is no school again..."Staff Development Days". Again, I have lessons on those days and it is so difficult to re-schedule them so everyone gets another time. This past Saturday, I even taught lessons to those who wanted an extra/make-up lesson. The parents seemed very appreciative. The students seemed more. I had great feedback from the parents. The students and I were even able to show off our 'dueting'. Then! We start spring break April 4th-15th...wow, these last 2 months have flown by. It's crazy! I feel so blessed that I've stuck to it, not given up, and tried to re-adjust my teaching to things the students want to learn about.
Can you believe most students have never looked inside a piano to see how it works?! Such a simple and fairly easily executed lesson which the students really enjoyed. Even if they were just banging away on the thing, they were ALL smiling, from kindergarten thru 8th grade. I also let each grade take a turn banging the humungo bass drum the school has. They loved it! It was really cute and quite entertaining. I wish I could offer more instruments for them to try. However, singing with the older grades continues to be a challenge, and I must admit, I haven't pushed very hard. Lesson learned for next year, "Make them sing from the beginning". So much to learn. I would really love to get back into school and become more knowledgeable about music and teaching. This is my next endeavor, but one thing at a time.
The 8th grade just received their high school placements. Quite a few of the guys are attending St Pats, which is where I student taught. I am so thrilled they are going there! I'd love to say I had an influence, but I can't be sure. Also, I will be writing my first recommendation letter for an 8th grader! She did not get into the school she wanted and is appealing her admission. She is such a bright, determined, and talented young lady. I hope I can help her.
Oh! When I was at school on Saturday, one of the moms gave me a FREE ($5) ticket to the Pancake Dinner Fundraiser for Boy Scouts. Pancakes at 4pm? I'm in! It was really neat to see students out of the school element. The boys were so gentlemenly and well mannered. Of course, the first thing they noticed was my new hair color. That was another funny thing all week. "Miss Courchaine! Did you dye your hair..again?" "I really like it!" "I like you better blonde." "You look like Katy Perry." "You look like Flo from the insurance commercials." "Do we have a substitute?" I suppose when you encounter 400 kids, there's bound to be some conversation.
Tomorrow evening, I am singing with the advanced parish choir for Stations of the Cross. I am really excited because I've ran rehearsals with this group, and they are all truly gifted. It will be so awesome to be a musician with other musicians. Sometimes, it's difficult to get back into the swing of singing/playing advanced music when I'm continuously singing 'Hickory Dickory Dock'. I have really tried to maintain my piano and voice skills though. Sometimes I will get caught up after school or lessons, just playing or singing material from college or before. I am thrilled for this opportunity tomorrow evening. Plus, it is such an easy way to get to church and worship. I always feel better after an hour session with the Higher Power.
One other thing about my classes. I asked the junior high students, "Do any other teachers use technology in the classroom?" NO!! Well, actually, one student said a teacher uses the overhead. Let me just preface with this: My technology in my room is boogey. There are constant problems and quite often, these problems keep the lesson held up. However, there is no way I could ever teach without using technology. Even powerpoint. Youtube. This is so important! This is what students know and relate to. Next year, I will have my room set up properly(now that I know what I need). But for now, a few blips don't hurt. As much of a traditionalist as I am, there is NO WAY I couldn't use technology. So! If anyone would like to donate to my Music Class Mayhem fund, please feel free!
On a different note, thank you again to all who read this blog. It keeps me writing. I love hearing your comments and support. Sometimes, I can't help writing about my personal life because it does affect my teaching, but I love and appreciate your patience. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Can you believe most students have never looked inside a piano to see how it works?! Such a simple and fairly easily executed lesson which the students really enjoyed. Even if they were just banging away on the thing, they were ALL smiling, from kindergarten thru 8th grade. I also let each grade take a turn banging the humungo bass drum the school has. They loved it! It was really cute and quite entertaining. I wish I could offer more instruments for them to try. However, singing with the older grades continues to be a challenge, and I must admit, I haven't pushed very hard. Lesson learned for next year, "Make them sing from the beginning". So much to learn. I would really love to get back into school and become more knowledgeable about music and teaching. This is my next endeavor, but one thing at a time.
The 8th grade just received their high school placements. Quite a few of the guys are attending St Pats, which is where I student taught. I am so thrilled they are going there! I'd love to say I had an influence, but I can't be sure. Also, I will be writing my first recommendation letter for an 8th grader! She did not get into the school she wanted and is appealing her admission. She is such a bright, determined, and talented young lady. I hope I can help her.
Oh! When I was at school on Saturday, one of the moms gave me a FREE ($5) ticket to the Pancake Dinner Fundraiser for Boy Scouts. Pancakes at 4pm? I'm in! It was really neat to see students out of the school element. The boys were so gentlemenly and well mannered. Of course, the first thing they noticed was my new hair color. That was another funny thing all week. "Miss Courchaine! Did you dye your hair..again?" "I really like it!" "I like you better blonde." "You look like Katy Perry." "You look like Flo from the insurance commercials." "Do we have a substitute?" I suppose when you encounter 400 kids, there's bound to be some conversation.
Tomorrow evening, I am singing with the advanced parish choir for Stations of the Cross. I am really excited because I've ran rehearsals with this group, and they are all truly gifted. It will be so awesome to be a musician with other musicians. Sometimes, it's difficult to get back into the swing of singing/playing advanced music when I'm continuously singing 'Hickory Dickory Dock'. I have really tried to maintain my piano and voice skills though. Sometimes I will get caught up after school or lessons, just playing or singing material from college or before. I am thrilled for this opportunity tomorrow evening. Plus, it is such an easy way to get to church and worship. I always feel better after an hour session with the Higher Power.
One other thing about my classes. I asked the junior high students, "Do any other teachers use technology in the classroom?" NO!! Well, actually, one student said a teacher uses the overhead. Let me just preface with this: My technology in my room is boogey. There are constant problems and quite often, these problems keep the lesson held up. However, there is no way I could ever teach without using technology. Even powerpoint. Youtube. This is so important! This is what students know and relate to. Next year, I will have my room set up properly(now that I know what I need). But for now, a few blips don't hurt. As much of a traditionalist as I am, there is NO WAY I couldn't use technology. So! If anyone would like to donate to my Music Class Mayhem fund, please feel free!
On a different note, thank you again to all who read this blog. It keeps me writing. I love hearing your comments and support. Sometimes, I can't help writing about my personal life because it does affect my teaching, but I love and appreciate your patience. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Monday, February 6, 2012
february 2012
Where do I start? I know it's been a while since I've written. Life never ceases to amaze me. It is incredible how things change in a moment. A second. How blessed we are to live this life. Yet, it is so complex, surprising, and humbling. This is what I know now: No matter what, we are not alone. Yet, no matter what, if we are not content with ourselves, we will always feel alone. I'm talking in a philosophical light I suppose, but that's just the way I've been thinking. I think about actions and experiences. I question their genuineness, and sometimes, I'm just not sure. I think, "How could I have been so wrong?" Or, "Is it that I knew it wasn't right from the beginning but just didn't want to listen?" There is ALWAYS that voice inside ourselves, our gut instinct, our intuition, that gives us an immediate reaction. How difficult is it to listen to?? It is for me. Maybe I'm weak. Maybe I am not yet mature enough to handle my instinct. Maybe I'm just a hopeless optimist. This is yet to be determined....ok. enough soul writing. How does this mind set affect my teaching?
There is a good and a bad...as always. The bad is that I am quick to 'snap'. It is hard to put myself in my student's shoes because I'm so wrapped up in my own head. The good is that I end up being extremely compassionate. I feel for my students and am able to bond with them in ways I have only dreamed of. One reason I wanted to be an educator is to build relationships with students. I've always hoped my students could trust me. Share their thoughts. Understand that THEY are not alone. In all the wackiness my life tends to lend, I know this is the person I want to be for them. These past 2 weeks have given me hope in trusting my gut. I've had amazing, intimate conversations with students. They have trusted me with their biggest fears. They have opened up. They have reiterated why I am in this position. I love my students for this. I love my profession for this. I am hopeful in my career. Maybe this hopefulness will bounce back into my personal life. I have to believe it will. Otherwise, I am becoming a nun...
ok. That's a bit extreme. However, there is some truth to this feeling. After being in Chicago for 8 years, I've had a love/hate/love relationship with this city. I've dated, dated again, revisited, and dated. I'm a Wisconsin girl who has worked her ass off to get where she is. There are many women in this city that have done the same. Why are we still single?? I have a theory. I've written another article that I really think can get published. It deals with dating in Chicago. Dating in a big city. It deals with Chicago-meninitis. Yes, this is a term I've coined. Yes, it's cheesy(hence the Wisco girl). Yes, there is truth to my theory. Yes, I want to get this damn article published. I'm not saying what I have written is profound or 'new', but I know that other men and women can relate...at least that's what my friends tell me...and my mom. Anyways, since I've been single again(no it wasn't a long relationship, but very 'jump with both feet in'), I've been thinking and writing. Writing music. Writing articles. Writing a 3 part harmony arrangement of "The Star Spangled Banner"(see Jen Eberhardy). Writing all the time..well that's an exaggeration, but writing more than I have in 3 years. Rambling is not my fortay, but these are all issues that have caused me not to write on this blog. I was embarrassed. I was shocked. And I was pissed.
However, I have regained composure. I am diving back into what I love the most. Music. I've written 2 new amazing songs and will be recording again. This is a work in progress, but progress is happening. I haven't even thought about recording for so long. Why!? Truth: I wasn't inspired. But! I am now. I am so excited to even have the opportunity to record and write and sing my own music and get back to another avenue that I've always loved/hated/loved. It's very cool to feel confident again in my writing and musical capabilities. Yes, my life experience has lent it's hand in this. But my passion for music and inspiring people will always be my gut instinct.
I hope everyone who takes the time to read this post knows how grateful I am. You have all inspired me to keep writing. To not give up. And to stay positive and motivated. Thank you.
There is a good and a bad...as always. The bad is that I am quick to 'snap'. It is hard to put myself in my student's shoes because I'm so wrapped up in my own head. The good is that I end up being extremely compassionate. I feel for my students and am able to bond with them in ways I have only dreamed of. One reason I wanted to be an educator is to build relationships with students. I've always hoped my students could trust me. Share their thoughts. Understand that THEY are not alone. In all the wackiness my life tends to lend, I know this is the person I want to be for them. These past 2 weeks have given me hope in trusting my gut. I've had amazing, intimate conversations with students. They have trusted me with their biggest fears. They have opened up. They have reiterated why I am in this position. I love my students for this. I love my profession for this. I am hopeful in my career. Maybe this hopefulness will bounce back into my personal life. I have to believe it will. Otherwise, I am becoming a nun...
ok. That's a bit extreme. However, there is some truth to this feeling. After being in Chicago for 8 years, I've had a love/hate/love relationship with this city. I've dated, dated again, revisited, and dated. I'm a Wisconsin girl who has worked her ass off to get where she is. There are many women in this city that have done the same. Why are we still single?? I have a theory. I've written another article that I really think can get published. It deals with dating in Chicago. Dating in a big city. It deals with Chicago-meninitis. Yes, this is a term I've coined. Yes, it's cheesy(hence the Wisco girl). Yes, there is truth to my theory. Yes, I want to get this damn article published. I'm not saying what I have written is profound or 'new', but I know that other men and women can relate...at least that's what my friends tell me...and my mom. Anyways, since I've been single again(no it wasn't a long relationship, but very 'jump with both feet in'), I've been thinking and writing. Writing music. Writing articles. Writing a 3 part harmony arrangement of "The Star Spangled Banner"(see Jen Eberhardy). Writing all the time..well that's an exaggeration, but writing more than I have in 3 years. Rambling is not my fortay, but these are all issues that have caused me not to write on this blog. I was embarrassed. I was shocked. And I was pissed.
However, I have regained composure. I am diving back into what I love the most. Music. I've written 2 new amazing songs and will be recording again. This is a work in progress, but progress is happening. I haven't even thought about recording for so long. Why!? Truth: I wasn't inspired. But! I am now. I am so excited to even have the opportunity to record and write and sing my own music and get back to another avenue that I've always loved/hated/loved. It's very cool to feel confident again in my writing and musical capabilities. Yes, my life experience has lent it's hand in this. But my passion for music and inspiring people will always be my gut instinct.
I hope everyone who takes the time to read this post knows how grateful I am. You have all inspired me to keep writing. To not give up. And to stay positive and motivated. Thank you.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Happy 2012!
Is it really January in the Midwest? It was close to 50 degrees in Chicago again. Since I don't have any prior teaching experience, I can't say for sure if this weather is messing with the students, but I'm pretty sure it is. Or it could be the recent full moon that seemed to make everyone bonkers. Or it could be the fact that they've been on break for almost 2 weeks, probably playing video games, sleeping in, and not really having any responsibilities...coming back to school off a long break is brutal. The kids are so crazy and wound up. If I could only give them all a knock to the head and say, "HELLO!!! YOU ARE BACK AT SCHOOL!! THAT SHIT AIN'T GONNA FLY HERE!! GET IT TOGETHER MAN!! Of course, that type of punishment is illegal in Illinois ( whoever decided that was not in education...let me tell you) but I've tried to be patient and understand that the students need time to re-adjust.
This week has already been a million times more productive than last. I've had fairly successful classes so far. However, tomorrow is my beloved 8th grade classes. I just don't understand what will motivate them. I've offered them a phenomenal field trip opportunity to a state-of-the-art studio, an opportunity to meet a sound engineer/producer who has Grammys, and a day off school!! How does this not get something to click in their head? Like, "Hey, all we need to do is learn part of 'Don't Stop Believing'? One of the greatest songs ever? That we begged to learn? Hell, I'll learn the song AND sing it while doing jumping jacks!!"
FYI: They do not think this way. They would rather sit and 'mope' or goof off during warm-ups...warm-ups that 'allow' them to act goofy...it just does not make sense. I swear the day I meet someone who has figured out the adolescent mind, I will bend down, kiss their feet, and beg for insight.
On the other hand, as much as I want to throw in the towel with this level, I just can't. I've been able to connect with every other grade. I have to figure out a way to connect with the 8th grade. They need me the most. After the debacle last week, I ended up completely changing my lesson plan on the spur of the moment. Once I gave them requirements for the summary they needed to write, they were fine. I don't want them to do 'busy work' all the time. I want them to sing damnit!!! Please hear me loud and clear when I say, if you have any suggestions, I am all ears!!
Ok...so to give you something to chuckle at...yesterday was one of the toughest days this school year to get through...call it the full moon or pms or personal problems or lack of sleep or lack of nutrition...whatever the case, when lunchtime came, I locked myself in my room and sat there in the dark in silence praying that God would give me the strength to get through the afternoon. SO, my last classes were Kindergarten and 2nd grades. You may think these grades would be so simple and easy to teach. They are. If you are fine with stopping every 2 seconds to correct behavior or stop a kid from going on a random tangent about their dog or mom or the sidewalk outside and "why are there cracks in it"...blah blah blah. Trust me, it is the cutest thing but not when you are just trying to maintain your own sanity...so anyways, the first K class walks in, notices the movie screen is down, and immediately asks if we are watching videos. I had not necessarily planned on this...I hadn't planned on anything...but one student said something about watching videos from other countries. I'm not sure why, but you may refer to my previous statements about their randomness. A light went off in my head. "YES! We are listening and watching videos of music from other countries and your job is to listen, watch, and try to figure out what country this music is from!" By the way, I cannot take any credit for that idea at that time, God really does have angels watching over us...but it was brilliant! They LOVED it!! And I was surprised at how many countries they guessed correctly! Of course I did the exact thing with the 2nd grades and they also loved it!
I feel like a schmuck for admitting that but sometimes in this profession, I'm learning that I need to listen to the students "small talk", consider it, and adapt their ideas/thoughts into my lessons. Oh! Back to the 8th grade, one student suggested I play techno music while they are walking in to 'pump them up'. I will be doing this tomorrow so stayed tuned to hear about that one! I will try again to get them to sing. Pray for us.
The more I feel grounded in my faith, the more I am reassured and convinced that our higher power, God, is alive and well. He wants so much to be a part of our lives. He is always available, always willing to listen, and many times, he responds. This has become so apparent to me and I am so thankful that I have once again reaffirmed my faith. I encourage everyone who reads this blog (thank you) to reach out when you are having difficulties. When you think there is no one, there is. All you have to do is start talking (aka praying) and I promise your prayers will be answered in one way or another.
My experience is that prayers are answered in the most beautiful ways. These last few days have once again shown me that we are not alone. EVER. I've realized many things through this past year: 1. We cannot accomplish anything alone. 2. If we do not want to change we won't. 3. I have the most amazing friends and family I could ever dream of. 4. People are truly compassionate even in this messed up world. 5. The things and people you surround yourself with have such a huge impact on who you are and will become. 6. My dad. I love him so much and cannot begin to describe how amazing and beautiful he is. 7. Each day is a new opportunity to change, grow, and learn. 8. This world truly is spectacular and full of opportunity. 9. True Love isn't dead. 10. Those of you who continue to follow my journey give me great encouragement even if we do not communicate regularly.Thank you.
This week has already been a million times more productive than last. I've had fairly successful classes so far. However, tomorrow is my beloved 8th grade classes. I just don't understand what will motivate them. I've offered them a phenomenal field trip opportunity to a state-of-the-art studio, an opportunity to meet a sound engineer/producer who has Grammys, and a day off school!! How does this not get something to click in their head? Like, "Hey, all we need to do is learn part of 'Don't Stop Believing'? One of the greatest songs ever? That we begged to learn? Hell, I'll learn the song AND sing it while doing jumping jacks!!"
FYI: They do not think this way. They would rather sit and 'mope' or goof off during warm-ups...warm-ups that 'allow' them to act goofy...it just does not make sense. I swear the day I meet someone who has figured out the adolescent mind, I will bend down, kiss their feet, and beg for insight.
On the other hand, as much as I want to throw in the towel with this level, I just can't. I've been able to connect with every other grade. I have to figure out a way to connect with the 8th grade. They need me the most. After the debacle last week, I ended up completely changing my lesson plan on the spur of the moment. Once I gave them requirements for the summary they needed to write, they were fine. I don't want them to do 'busy work' all the time. I want them to sing damnit!!! Please hear me loud and clear when I say, if you have any suggestions, I am all ears!!
Ok...so to give you something to chuckle at...yesterday was one of the toughest days this school year to get through...call it the full moon or pms or personal problems or lack of sleep or lack of nutrition...whatever the case, when lunchtime came, I locked myself in my room and sat there in the dark in silence praying that God would give me the strength to get through the afternoon. SO, my last classes were Kindergarten and 2nd grades. You may think these grades would be so simple and easy to teach. They are. If you are fine with stopping every 2 seconds to correct behavior or stop a kid from going on a random tangent about their dog or mom or the sidewalk outside and "why are there cracks in it"...blah blah blah. Trust me, it is the cutest thing but not when you are just trying to maintain your own sanity...so anyways, the first K class walks in, notices the movie screen is down, and immediately asks if we are watching videos. I had not necessarily planned on this...I hadn't planned on anything...but one student said something about watching videos from other countries. I'm not sure why, but you may refer to my previous statements about their randomness. A light went off in my head. "YES! We are listening and watching videos of music from other countries and your job is to listen, watch, and try to figure out what country this music is from!" By the way, I cannot take any credit for that idea at that time, God really does have angels watching over us...but it was brilliant! They LOVED it!! And I was surprised at how many countries they guessed correctly! Of course I did the exact thing with the 2nd grades and they also loved it!
I feel like a schmuck for admitting that but sometimes in this profession, I'm learning that I need to listen to the students "small talk", consider it, and adapt their ideas/thoughts into my lessons. Oh! Back to the 8th grade, one student suggested I play techno music while they are walking in to 'pump them up'. I will be doing this tomorrow so stayed tuned to hear about that one! I will try again to get them to sing. Pray for us.
The more I feel grounded in my faith, the more I am reassured and convinced that our higher power, God, is alive and well. He wants so much to be a part of our lives. He is always available, always willing to listen, and many times, he responds. This has become so apparent to me and I am so thankful that I have once again reaffirmed my faith. I encourage everyone who reads this blog (thank you) to reach out when you are having difficulties. When you think there is no one, there is. All you have to do is start talking (aka praying) and I promise your prayers will be answered in one way or another.
My experience is that prayers are answered in the most beautiful ways. These last few days have once again shown me that we are not alone. EVER. I've realized many things through this past year: 1. We cannot accomplish anything alone. 2. If we do not want to change we won't. 3. I have the most amazing friends and family I could ever dream of. 4. People are truly compassionate even in this messed up world. 5. The things and people you surround yourself with have such a huge impact on who you are and will become. 6. My dad. I love him so much and cannot begin to describe how amazing and beautiful he is. 7. Each day is a new opportunity to change, grow, and learn. 8. This world truly is spectacular and full of opportunity. 9. True Love isn't dead. 10. Those of you who continue to follow my journey give me great encouragement even if we do not communicate regularly.Thank you.
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